Tuesday, February 1, 2011


 am disgusted, to the core. of all the articles, editorials, news reports and whatever else that i've been seeing all around. it seems people have suddenly woken up to the knowledge of upcoming Commonwealth Games. everyone suddenly seems to be of the opinion that we shouldn't be hosting the Games in the first place. what bull!


where were these intellectual geniuses when Delhi was putting in the bid ages ago? when we won the bid the impact of the expenditure on our 'poor developing economy', 'dwindeling resources', 'malnourished kids' was not the foremost thought on their minds! i can bet quite a few of them gave interviews, wrote articles and fought over tv space, gushing about what a proud moment it was for India.


the country won the bid quite a few years ago. but it's just now that they have woken up to the impact and the uselessness of it all. delhi has been in a pitiable state for the longest time now. every corner you go to, every street you drive through, some construction work is going on. roads are dug up, every second route diverted, trafffic in a chaos, metro schedules and functioning abysmal, pathetic powercuts, water shortage, what not. to top it, not only does our CM, lady dikshit turn down the offer of companies to lower the tariffs, the govt even levies additional taxes for the CWG. all these, no matter how painful and annoying, had been defended by most average delhiites for a long time. so much so, my cynicism was almost gone. but now, after years, seems most of the people in power or with the power are losing this optimism, doing their best to ensure that others follow suit.
'is it all worth the expenditure?', 'can we afford all this?', 'shouldn't the funds by delegated somewhere more useful instead?', 'people should boycott the Games if they know what's good for them' -some of the oft repeated sentiments these days. common people being tired of the difficulties they face, complaining about them is understandable. people worried about losing face due to the lax attitude of authorities, and moaning about the pathetic speed of work is justified. cursing in the crazy traffic jams and chaos is ok. taxpayers coming out in arms over misuse of their money is TOTALLY ok.
BUT... a former cabinet minister of the presently ruling government declaring publicly that he hopes the Games fail is NOT ok! people forgetting these Games all these years, overlooking the lax preparations, ignoring the blatant misuse and embezzlement of funds, staying quite all this while is loathesome. newspapers and TV channels doing exclusives on new stories everyday to further trash these Games at this last minute is downright careless and questionable. the governments (both central and state) forgetting about it all this while, uncontrolled epidemics, the doubts arising in the minds of the international community are abhorable!
as if the world doubting our ability to host CWG wasn't enough, now even we are looking down upon ourselves, booing what we've been working for all these years.

there was plenty of time to speak your mind. but none of you did. not till this minute. probably would not have made shrewd business sense, huh? but for once put your popcorn patriotism, your pseudo concerns for the damned non issues under scanner. if you can't be bothered to go buy a ticket, don't. just stop maligning the whole thing at this last hour over concerns which are general and in no way related merely to these games.















I stare at the moon, awestruck, mesmerized.
So much it has witnessed through its life.
Centuries of lores, tales untold,
So many secrets under its fold.
The reasons for the slights, the causes to their pains,
A wish to foresee the future, how to make stupendous gains.
The trechery of a friend, The unfaithfulness of a lover.
Yet it shines every night, bright as ever.
A confidante to the lonely, a silent observer.
A keeper of secrets, the lone faithful preserver.
Never too judgemental, never too harsh.
Arms wide open to every traveler across the marsh.
So much to give, so less asked for in return.
Yet, the oft repeated query,
"why does the moon bear so many scars?"



When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

- Author unknown

was on the terrace... spaced out for a bit, looking at the sky...the sun, the clouds.. when i first looked, the sun was hidden behind the clouds, hardly visible to the eye. then, just as i was looking, started emerging bit by bit. concentrating, i tried noticing the 'movements'...but no show. it was just...there. hidden, emerging, but still there, just the same.

ofcourse it was the clouds moving, covering it. but the romantic, no logic state that my brain was in, it didn't strike me immediately. when it struck me, i couldn't help laughing at myself. those first few classes of science, of EVS. genius! duh!

and then another random thought came to my mind...isn't it how we are, how life is? a game of hide and seek...what we wish for, that source of all motivation..it's right there, our 'sun'. always. it;s just that we don't look for it the right way..let ourselves get distracted by the 'clouds'... we're so busy figuring out the blanket we forget what it was that we were looking for, our 'sun'.. to us, it's our sun that's dodging us, avoiding us, slipping out of our hands, leaving us bewildered. whereas it's always right there, where it was when aimed for it. just the clouds got thicker and blocked our view. how we do refuse to look at things straight, yeah? i do...all the time. yet, when the realization comes in, it never fails to amaze me...

hmmm...funny how i've never noticed this. or rather, noticed it but never paid attention to it. or likelier still, never been jobless enough?
hell, deepak chopra and robin sharma would be proud of me right now... heh.

i'm happy. quite inexplicably so. have been like this for a couple of days now. why? no idea. bu this scares me. whenever i AM like this, it usually results in a bit of an anticlimax! ah well..just gotta keep reminding myself to prioritise! :)
quite a few things to look forward to actually...meeting a really old friend, meeting some new people, meeting up with some of my favorite people!
books...so many i've stacked up! movies..! music..! markets! gym! CLASSES!
bwahaha!

MY WISH LIST FOR THE NEW YEAR


1. complete my CA course, get my degree.

2. lose weight, get in shape (yessss!)

3. brush up my driving and navigation skills.

4. finally take up photography, try new things with the camera, get a decent editing software and play around with it till i figure it out.

5. meditate...build up on concentration and focus.

6. keep confusion and chaos at a minimum.

7. unclutter my mind, and my surroundings. think ideas and words through before expressing them out loud.

8. take up sketching again.

9. join a language course

10. start working

12. try and give shape to the ideas that come up in my head and build on them, instead of just thinking about them and never doing anything about them. (yes, i know this one sounds pretty vague. but well...)

13. remove the word 'try' from my vocab, and actually DO things that need to be done...CHUCK the laziness and procrastination away... get off my ass and actually do things that need to be done..

14. brush up my culinary skills... and in a variety of things at that, so that, by the end of the year am able to prepare a decent meal, all on my own.

15. actually do all these things on my wish and not to forget about any of them!